Thursday, July 30, 2009

The girlie doctor

I love my OBGYN. She's nice and plesant and when you have an appointment at 9:00 you see her at 9:15 which is just amazing to me. I went in for my yearly on Monday and she found a lump on my left breast. A million things ran through my mind. Mostly it was, "what do you mean, a lump?" She said that she thought it was just fiberous tissue, but I needed to get an ultrasound just make sure. She said that I might need to have surgery to remove it, but maybe not.

I felt so many things the rest of the day. I had to go back to work and I felt like I was in a cloud the whole day. How long had that lump been there? I felt guilty. I always tell the doctor that I do my own examinations, but the truth is I probably only remember every three months or so. I went to workout on my lunch break and felt the lump and almost completely broke down in the locker room. If I had cancer everything would change. Would Scott be able to stay in school? Would I be able to keep my job and my insurance? Would I have to move home? I was in a million places at once and no where in particular.

I called the radiology receptionist to make the ultra sound appointment and she had to enter in all my information and apparently she needed to enter in "reason for appointment" about 600 times because she kept saying under her breath, "left breast lump". It freaked me out every time I heard it. I made the appointment for Wednesday and all I could do was wait.

I had my full breakdown Monday night. Scott was wonderful and gave me a Preisthood blessing and that really calmed me down. The next day I really didn't think about it, and when I did I didn't dwell on it.

On Wednesday morning we went to the radiology building and checked it. In the waiting room was a whole array of women. Young, old, some even younger than me. On the coffee table were magazines with titles like, "Living with Cancer".

I got called back, got my gown on and the radiology clinician did the ultra sound. She had to keep going over it again and again. Then she called the doctor in and he did another ultra sound. The doctor finally told me that it looked like all normal tissue and that I would probably just need to follow up with my doctor to see what she wanted to do next.

I was so grateful that things were normal. But the truth is that I do have a lump and it could turn into cancer. I don't know how likely this is, but it could still happen. It's really made me think about what I eat and how much I exercise and take care of myself. I doubt I will ever forget to do my own examinations again.

So this is my reminder to you, one week after your period is over, check yourself.

UPDATE: My doctor's office called. They didn't find anything on the ultra sound, but she wants me to go in for a mamogram just to be sure. I'm glad.

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Blogs you should be reading, if you're not already

Picture from Smitten Kitchen.
I'm really trying to blog more. My friend Natalie has posts called Pin In where she talks about all the cool things she's found on the internet that she loves. So I thought I would do something similar. We all have our favorite blogs that we wouldn't mind reading every day. My number one blog is the Smitten Kitchen. This spunky New Yorker is just an amazing chef, but it's her pictures that draw you in. The reason I like her pictures most of all is that she shows "process" pictures. She shows you how to go from A to B. And I never feel overwhelmed by her recipes. Everything she cooks she makes seem doable. I know lots of you read her blog, but if you don't, you should. Share with me your secret blog delights. Cuz I do love the comments.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Missing Pioneer Day

I got out of bed today knowing that everyone in Utah was either sleeping in or going to the parade. I loved the 24th of July as a kid. It's the parade where you got to decorate your bike or wagon and walk down 4th north. You got to have more fireworks and more potato salad and more hamburgers. I think having a state holiday for your "founding" is a rare thing. It doesn't happen in Nebraska or Colorado. So for all you luckies that didn't have to work today, tell me what you did instead. I'm at work, but still very grateful for the pioneers.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

After almost 4 years, we've got some things figured out

This past year in Lincoln has been a very interesting one. Lots of growth for both of us. I think the best thing that has happened in our marriage this past year has been how we split up the chores. Before we would wait until we had hardly any clean clothes left that we would finally haul everything to the basement of our apartment complex to get it done and it would take hours. Finally Scott decided that he hated folding the most, so he struck a deal with me. He'll wash and dry if I fold and put away. Deal. Then I decided that would also work with the dishes. So now I unload the dishwasher and he loads. It has turned out to be an amazing system. We always know who's "turn" it is and we never get really behind in the laundry or the dishes. Scott really does work a lot around the house. He always does the litter box every day, feeds Gimli, takes out the trash and 8 times out of 10 he vacuums and cleans the bathroom. Plus President Obama just signed a big fat grant for Scott's lab so my husband is the best.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

New blog of awesomeness

I've decided to start a blog dedicated to my teaching. Things are changing all the time with my studio so I thought I would start documenting. So do me a favor and put me on your blogroll!

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

The longer you wait...

..The harder it is to play catch up on the blog. Here is a quick rundown of the last month:
1) Had a final concert with my cute OLLI folks-8 are now my private students. (8/17 ain't bad)
2) Went to Utah for my Suzuki teacher training and it was AMAZING! I am such a better teacher. Got to see some family and spend some serious time with my mama, which is what I needed.
3) Got back and the next day came down with the flu-not the swine kind-but I don't think I've been that sick in a long time. Missed 3 days of work (on top of missing 5 days the previous week because of being in Utah.)
4) Came back to work-got all caught up-and now I just want the three day weekend to be here.
5) I'm going to get better at blogging with cute pictures and clever things to say.